Sunday, May 10, 2009, 11:51 PM
Soooo tired, wanted to sleep, but dreaming of myself writing my blog.. So, dun sleep, wake up and write my blog lor.. For so long i have not do any updates, only post some photos of my little princess.. later will add somemore latest ones for viewing.
time flies, have been starting doing my own biz since Jan 09. Only from end march onwards, i have an additional partner (Jason's gf). Alot of things can be done with 2 persons running the biz, rather than me alone thinking hard how to generate more income myself. ALOT of sacrifices to make, i have not enuff time to spend everyday.. I dun have time to sleep, dun have enuff time for my little girl, not enuff time for my hubby also, alot alot more..
Though i everything also like not enuff, but luckily i have support from my hubby & my parents.. they are the 3 people i wana thank alot, always there when i needed them to help.. Lots of things to say, to complain, but still, i try to keep everything to myself.. if everything oso need to voice out, there's nothing call secret liao..
Damn tired.. every nite, my baby girl will make noise in the middle of the nite abt 3am, then tap tap her to sleep, about 6-7am, is drinking milk time again.. If heng heng got my mother in law to take care, i can sleep, if not then i'll have to force my baby back to sleep in the sarong.. I dunno why i just can't keep myself awake in the mornings.. I wanted so much to play with my girl, see her more before i go work, but i just can't keep myself awake.. sometimes i go out in the morning, see her only abt 1 or 2 hrs, then come back about 10 plus, she already sleeping.. I really want to accompany her, but really time is not enuff for me.. Luckily tues and thurs, i bring her to my mummy place since morning, then only i got more time with her..
Today is the 1st year's Mother's day for me, and of course for Dom and cousin Wendy also.. Being a mum is really not easy. If u wana have time for the child, money dunno enuff anot, wan more money for the child, time oso not enuff.. So hard to balance up..
Finally i understood how my hubby felt when he was doing biz and working few yrs back. I was so wrong to blame him having no time for me.. Maybe it's different for him and me, cos our characters are so different.. He can be independent, while I'm just being too dependent on him. At least now, if i'm working, he has a baby girl to accompany him.. It's really hard to balance time for everyone.. After work come back, if lucky, my girl haven't sleep, still can play with her, but after she sleep, i gotta check my mails, do some recordings, then can rest. Sometimes, when i finally have time to sit down and talk to my hubby, he might not have time for me.. He also got his own paperwork to do everyday.. Sometimes, i just sit around and play games, just to accompany him..
I really try very hard to balance up my time, hoping after this month, everything can be on track, i can come back and accompany my family in the evening.. Now super tired liao.. got time then blog le.. nites all~~~
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