Thursday, November 13, 2008, 10:58 AM
Nowadays still feeling vexed.. whether to go back to work anot.. This is my 1st baby, I really wish to have all my time for her.. But losing my income will be the main concern.. Not saying that my hubby cannot support us all, it's just that I'll lose all the freedom shopping for my own and baby stuffs liao..
If my mother in law were to take care for me, I can only come home and see my baby everyday after 6pm.. Cos she taking care of my boss's 2 kids, later they ask why I always come back early, then ppl will start to talk again.. I did ask my mum whether she wana take care for me anot as she will be jobless after Jan 09.. Unlike confinement time, I didn't confirm wif her before asking hubby ok anot, this time, I've asked properly, confirmed she ok liao then ask hubby.. But still... I get the same reply, always a disappointed one..
My mum said it's ok to look after abt half day, cos the other half, I'll be back to accompany my baby.. This is her 1st grandchild, more or less my baby seems precious to her.. I really hope my hubby can understand, to his family, our baby is just another grandchild while to my family side, she's a little precious princess =), cos she's number 1!
I really dunno how to talk to him, to agree with wat I've proposed.. I just wan more time with my baby and keeping my job for an extra income.. If really cannot, I dunno how long I can stand, everyday waiting for 6pm to come home see my baby.. Maybe I'll have to find other source of income, instead or working for my brother in law..
I'm now still on maternity till 15th Dec, maybe extend the 4th month by then, new yr pass liao then decide to go back work or not.. Think liao oso headache..
Labels: ~Own thoughts~
Monday, November 10, 2008, 8:49 PM
最浪漫的事 赵咏华
背靠着背坐在地毯上
听听音乐聊聊愿望
你希望我越来越温柔
我希望你放我在心上
你说想送我个浪漫的梦想
谢谢我带你找到天堂
哪怕用一辈子才能完成
只要我讲你就记住不忘
我能想到最浪漫的事就是和你一起慢慢变老
一路上收藏点点滴滴的欢笑
留到以后坐着摇椅慢慢聊
我能想到最浪漫的事就是和你一起慢慢变老
直到我们老的哪儿也去不了
你还依然把我当成手心里的宝
背靠着背坐在地毯上
听听音乐聊聊愿望
你希望我越来越温柔
我希望你放我在心上
你说想送我个浪漫的梦想
谢谢我带你找到天堂
哪怕用一辈子才能完成
只要我讲你就记住不忘
我能想到最浪漫的事就是和你一起慢慢变老
一路上收藏点点滴滴的欢笑
留到以后坐着摇椅慢慢聊
我能想到最浪漫的事就是和你一起慢慢变老
直到我们老的哪儿也去不了
你还依然把我当成手心里的宝
我能想到最浪漫的事就是和你一起慢慢变老
一路上收藏点点滴滴的欢笑
留到以后坐着摇椅慢慢聊
我能想到最浪漫的事就是和你一起慢慢变老
直到我们老的哪儿也去不了
你还依然把我当成手心里的宝
Labels: ~Own thoughts~
Friday, November 7, 2008, 8:12 PM
Found this article in Nov'08 Motherhood magazine.. Quite interesting to know how guys really feel when we as the wife, giving birth to a little baby, all the pains and hard times we're going through, whether isit appreciated at all anot.. =)
Labels: ~Own thoughts~
Monday, November 3, 2008, 10:07 PM
I've got something to say after taking care of my little Alyssa for abt 6 weeks (thursday is 6 wks liao)..
First, would like to share how painful is the process when about to give birth.. The contractions were abit more painful than menstrual cramp (which varies from ppl to ppl, some really damn pain while mine is ok only).. If your menstrual cramp can make u having cold sweat dripping down, then it should be abt that kinda feeling.. The actual pain came in when the baby is abt to come out.. Can say nearly felt like giving up, dun wana give birth anymore.. For alot of reasons, I persevered and finally baby Alyssa head came out, whew, another push to go for the body to be out (which was much more easier).. See the placenta when nurse showed me, yucks so disgusting..
I think I did broke down and cried abit after giving birth to my baby.. At first, all I thought is that I wana give my hubby a baby, or maybe a baby could more or less improve our marriage.. I felt so sad, thinking was it worth dat kinda pain to give birth to a baby? But things changed after really looking at the little baby, holding her in my arms, feeling like it's a miracle that this little thing can pop out of my tummy! All the negative feelings gone when u see her sleeping soundly, so innocent, so cute!
In the hospital and 1st few days home, only 1 word can describe my days there - TIRED..
I cannot stop ppl from visiting me, cos they came for goodsake and to see the baby.. I cannot tell ppl that I'm super tired and wana sleep and rest for the day.. phew, really difficult to tahan the days during 1st week.. So, for Dom and Wendy, my visits to you will be short and pls dun misunderstand that I dun care.. I care, that's why I dun wana disturb ur rest.. =)
Come to the feeding period.. this is the most tiring part for the 1st month.. currently 2nd month, still the same but more used to it.. I've got something to say to all the fathers and father to be.. during confinement or first few mths, pls pay more attention to ur wives' emotions.. I can say I broke down and cried as I dun have enough rest, feeling neglected by hubby cos he seems like only seeing baby when he's back from work.. Expects maybe a hug from him when he's back to maybe show that he appreciates my hard work of taking care of the baby, but always disappointed.. I dunno how other fathers feel during this period of time, but surely I do know how the mothers feel.. Felt so negative, so down and worse of all, baby fell sick.. really so luan that time..
Now that all things seems stable down, more used to the day and night 3 hourly feeds, I think emotionally I feel better now.. Hubby went reservist today till 11th Nov, think Iwill be more tired this week liao.. Maybe baby Alyssa will miss the daddy night feeds before his bedtime cos normally I'll take over the midnight feeds..
Ok, stop here so much for the topic on baby, will post another day when I'm free.. now go do housework, hang clothes liao.. =)
Labels: Baby Alyssa
